I’m going to elaborate on this here so I can have something to write. 😂
Sometimes I’ll read about something that seems like a thing I should care about and feel genuinely upset by how unfazed I am by it.
I’ll see something like “Very Famous Person Hospitalized” and I’ll be like “that’s fucked up” and not even… think about it again. And what’s worse, I’ll be actively annoyed by continued discussion of it. Like…
Then I feel bad because, they are important to people. They have family, friends, and fans who care. But I’m just like “must we continue talking about this?” I genuinely get irritated. Then I’ll be slightly distressed at how callous I am. And that’s just one example.
Why am I like this?
I really, very often, question whether I’m a good or bad person. I think I believe that actions mean more than words or thoughts, but I’m also in my own head. I know how I feel about someone or something. I know when I’m being critical, judgemental, or just plain mean. And I try not to have those thoughts and definitely try to act counter to them, but I don’t know if that’s enough.